allowing myself to be vulnerable.... is it wise?

vul·ner·a·ble

adj. Susceptible to physical or emotional injury.

The funny thing about loving someone is the risk you take when you decide to be completely *open*. Being open requires you to become vulnerable in hopes that the person feels the same, or returns similar openness to you. Well what happens when you choose to be open and the other person does not? Do you continue, or is it wise to hold back?

However if both person are picking and choosing what to share with one another what type of relationship/friendship can come from that? Yet if one person is open and the other person is not, it is clear that the person who is sharing their all is most *susceptible to emotional injury* so I guess the question then becomes: is it worth it? That I suppose can only be measured by how much this friendship means to the person who's likely to become a victim of it. But is victim the right word?

I find myself in a very odd situation because I have to make a decision to either open myself up to a friendship that I know will not go any further than a friendship with a person that I've grown to love OR do I open up just enough and move on to find the person who is ready and willing to love me back? I miss the good old days when relationships were easy. When people were together and KNEW why they were together and made it work. I hate this feeling I have, I never thought I'd be in a situation such as this and the worst part is I'm not 100% ready to let it go even though I know the likeliness of me being hurt emotionally is incredibly high.

Yet no matter what I tell myself I just cant make myself stop loving him

"I'd Do It All Again"

Ooh, you're searching for something I know,
won't make you happy
Ooh, you're thirsting for something I know,
won't make you happy
Ooh, you did it all again, you broke another skin
It's hard to believe this time, hard to believe
That my heart, my heart's an open door
You got all you came for, baby
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride's worth
Is bigger than the pain you got for it hurts
And out runs all of the sadness
It's terrifying, life, through the darkness

And I'd do it all again, I'd do it all again
I'd do it all again, I'd do it all again
You try sometimes but it won't stop
You got my heart and my head's lost, ooh yeah
I've been burning down these candles for love, for love
So weary, someone to love is bigger than your pride
Ooh, someone to love, mm, someone to love
Someone to love
Ooh, you're searching for something I know,
won't make you happy
Ooh

I Miss You

when he's not around I can't sleep & I have no appetite. when I make myself eat (b/c I know I have to) food has no taste

I just need him close to me *sigh* to feel his breath on my neck, his look as our eyes meet & the way my body feels when he touches me