The World Outside My Window

I'm floating within a-sexual, mono-sexual, bi-sexual and of course heterosexual. But I don't want to be/ choose just one.  I love mono-sexuality because I've been fucking as well as "making love" to myself since I was hmmm 9 or 10 years old; I've mastered it, yet as time passes I learn new, fun ways to please myself (very well). Lately, I've been able to climax from thoughts or fantasies and most recently, from stimulating a desired feeling. I feel as if that "feature" has become my new "toy". Reminds me of when I got the "hood" of my clit pierced; simply walking became orgasmic and highly pleasurable.  bi is for fantasy, fun and pleasure. A way to connect with another Goddess in the most intimate way. Exchanging sacred, divine energy and ancient secrets through the Heart, "Yoni" and 3rd eye portals. I recall my first experience with a girl, we were extremely young, perhaps 5 or 6 years old. We were in the back of my...

Seems the new bandwagon phenomenon has everyone talking about "energy" and how you should pay attention to the energy someone is showing you. I agree however there are a few components that should not be overlooked or counted out.  1. Frequency- although energy is important, without considering how (in)frequent the energy is coming your way you could very well be misinterpreting the sentiments and/ or thoughts expressed.  2. Vibration- how does the type/ style of energy, the level of frequency and the "vibe" make you feel? If it's all good, I say "play on". If it's okay, I'd make adjustments and if it's bad/ not good, welp.  3. Wavelength- to me this is the most important factor; if the energy, frequency and vibe are consistent yet meaningless/ thoughtless/ careless/ reckless/ etc. I'd rather do without however if the energy and vibe are meaningful, thoughtful, mindful, etc. I can overlook (in)frequency within reason.  How do you feel a...

FunFact(s): for "shits & giggles" I like to think of what I refer to as "randomness" and #translate it into other languages. lately I've been basking in French; I think I'm becoming #obsessed with France (OCDlife), partly because, "it's France, duh" lol  along with (I'm not sure how "well known" this is, but) one of the origins of the name "Kamille" is French and it was commonly a masculine name meaning FreeBorn, Noble and in other translations Perfect.   Clearly you can get a glimpse of the neurosis which are myThoughts; it was predestined (lmao) App: @textcutieofficial #TextCutie  * photo of my last published translation/ thought/ expression shared on my Twitter September 4, 2014. 

These feelings are uniquely unfamiliar; I've felt them before, many times;  but never to this magnitude. I recall this space, but typically the trip is over before I'm fully settled and had a chance to unpack my bags completely. I no longer recognize the shape of my Heart, it's been stretched to the point that it's unrecognizable to me. It's as if it's fully open, which frightens me; I suppose due to the amount of vulnerability it requires.   To think I'd get to be "a woman of a certain age" and finally begin to understand (slightly) what it means to love.  Not in the cliché sense of the term, this is something altogether different. I feel brand new to love; as if all of the hurts from the past have been erased.  A few days ago I posted on my Facebook that I'd given all of my "ugly Hurts" their "pretty Wings"; to be honest, I thought I was just being clever by playing on the words and songs of two of my favorite artist (...

feeling some shade of Blue in the moment. definitely not Indigo. i just looked at a color chart and the one that stuck out the most; or should I say, the one I was drawn to the most was Midnight Blue. it feels accurate, for reasons.  after a short "trip" down Memory Lane and a pit stop at a Pity Party hosted by "Trying To Figure Something Out" and a few side effects of Insomnia; I am making a Conscious effort to pull my Self out of it. so far holding my Rose Quartz seems to be helping a little, Well actually they're helping a lot.  The great thing is depression is at bay and I am encouraged to continue my Day; possibly engage in Team Fitness as well as a bit of "Team Of Me" in addition to "Team Us" (with the Fam) as I am aware that when you're feeling a little Blue, the Pink and Yellow helps.  *queues up "Yellow" by Coldplay* I also figured it always help to spread a bit of positive energy especially in those moments whe...

I'm curious; or rather questioning my thought(s) and decided to allow them to flourish. Do you find yourself using your words to "cast" torment/ misfortune upon your Self and/or Others (deformation) or are you speaking blessings and good will/ tidings to your Self and/ or Others (affirmations)? As I've awakened my Core along with (Concious Effort) towards managing a healthy Chakra balance I find myself much more sensitive to words than ever before. I recall as a child if someone (an Authority Figure) spoke harshly to me I would sincerely cry; as a result I rarely received spankings, if I were to count the number in total it would be far less than "average" and viewed as either "laughable" or "spoiled"; however when a peer used harsh words with me I'd return the sentiment and overall I've had approximately 5 (give or take, as I'm relying on my Memory) physical altercations from Elementary through High School. As a Y...