The World Outside My Window

i feel some type of way when i hear about someone being pregnant, i know that's selfish and "wrong" or whatever but its my truth so I must deal with it.  I also feel some kind of way when a man says to me "you can tell me anything" and when I do, I don't feel the safety he implied with those words.  I feel like I may never get what my heart truly desires: happy marriage, adoring husband, wonderful children, fulfilling career.  I mean I am not expecting some fairy tale but as time slips away and 30 becomes an age of the past, I wonder when and sometimes if at all my time will come. I am doing the work and getting through my progress however am I hung up on someone who will never want the same things as I do?  Is this all just a waste of my time?  Is it time to move on or do I wait a little longer as he shuffles through his circumstances and consequences?  I suppose only time will tell, but the real question is, do I really have time for it?

when making a decision one must factor in the desired outcome.  sometimes I think we blindly choose things without fully debating the "pros" vs. "cons" and understanding the consequences of our action, or sometimes, our inaction.  It seems that people often confuse consequences for circumstances and forgot that they are not the same thing,  A circumstance is like, "the hand that life deals you" and you must make the best out of it.  Whereas a consequence is a direct reflection of a choice, whether it was successful or a failure.  No one is responsible for your consequences but YOU however some may say that others contribute to your circumstances.  Either way, you alone must become the master of your fate and shape the journey so that it takes you to your desired destination. lately, I've noticed many people create situations for themselves which are clear consequences of poor decisions and call them "circumstances" and figure they just have...