The World Outside My Window

I desire to write daily; it often slips my mind to write in my journal(s), however today I had the bright idea and decided it would be very helpful.  In addition I am growing to understand which things to share and which to keep to myself (for various reasons).  Today, much like many days past, I have yet to exercise.  For the most part the only thing I've managed to succeed at towards #TeamFitness has been this delicious smoothie I'd made.    Without ranting and raving nonsense, I figure I should take the rest of this post and get out of the house and add a second task for my goal; get moving!   Funny things about feelings; they're too fickle most times.  

Summer has official gone, as the weather begins to change I am reminded of my thoughts towards it all.  Fall has always been my least favorite season, it's so sweet yet so cold.  I will admit, Summer this year was full of surprises and truths I suppose I did not want to face.  Without going into a play by play; I will say, I am truly grateful for the awareness and lesson learned.  What I will say however, is to make sure to trust your gut, intuition, whatever you call it.  When something doesn't quite feel right, often times it's because you are being forewarned that "this may be a mistake" .  At least that's my take on the matter. So for days perhaps weeks I have been in "My Bubble", it's where I zone out the world and focus on my thoughts and feelings.  I've managed to escape a time or two, but once I return it's as if I'd never left.  There's this crisp coldness that feels all too familiar; it's cold yet you wouldn...

As I look over my drafts as well as the number of entries this year I find myself asking "What Happened?".  It seems I may have gotten distracted, various things come to mind especially the post My New Baby ; I was so excited to introduce my words to another audience however I may have gone about it prematurely.  I later wrote What's Missing... which was a good start (in my mind) to introduce myself and combine both blogs.  Well, I realize I didn't have the proper time or resources to commit to both.  Add to that insomnia, anxiety and some of life's obstacles and you have what's happened; one post per month...   I intend to "do better" in the months to come, especially as the year comes to an end.  I find myself reflecting a bit early, and I can see my growth as well as some areas where I need work.  Thanks again for being a part of this journey, I am unsure where it leads exactly however with each new step, challenge, accomplishme...

For the past few weeks I have wanted to write, yet the words didn't seem to come together.  Times like this I tend to doubt my ability, then I remember why I began blogging as well as why/when I decided to change the blog from private to public.  I feel myself being self-conscious on occasion, during these times I begin telling myself various quotes I've read over the years; many like the one on the left encouraging me to keep going.  So many things have happened since the last time I shared, many of which I feel it's not time to talk about.    During a conversation over coffee I realized I was in a space of no worries. I recognized the number of troubles I've had happen as they say "all at once" compared to what's going on in my life now that I've truly "Let Go And Let God.  I reflect on how my life was and where it was going and I am grateful to know that those circumstances have been handled.  Not to sa...