I recall posting throughout the years about seeking to be more responsible; thinking things would magically come together and I could tackle each area of my life one by one; boy, was I wrong. Shortly after I discovered an avalanche of "trouble" and overwhelming feelings ranging from disbelief to confusion; eventually got things on track for the better. That's usually when we take a sigh of relief and "Thank GOD, that's over". The past few days I've had thoughts about "Getting Over" something, which to me is the lighter or "easier" way around various challenges life may bring. I find this process takes much longer because of the amount of time denying there's anything to get over in the first place. Then once we come to terms with the reality of the matter some may sweep it under the rug only to trip over it somewhere down the line.
This year has shown many ups and downs for me, however this time I am seeking a deeper understanding than before. An understanding that can only come from above. This Summer I found myself in a totally different storm I've never experienced many of the challenges I am facing while others are all too familiar.
As I attempt to gather my thoughts along with the "right" words I recognize the lengthy process I have when writing. I also recognize when I am stalling for time due to insecurity or some other silly emotion which prolongs the outcome. Then I "beat myself up" with my thoughts, suggesting I should do better; then you have a moment or two when someone else decides to inform you of the same. Many times when we are on the outside looking in we tend to be a bit harder on another as we may be on ourselves. Or we may take a situation lightly because we aren't walking in those shoes, I find actually taking the time, energy and effort necessary to go through the pains of growing can be the most difficult of all. To seek to become a better person in a world where many can be quite difficult to tolerate can be a challenge within itself. I am realizing times when I should be patient with myself as well as to extend that same courtesy to others. There are plenty of sayings which come to mind, but the bottom line is "love thy neighbor"; opting to treat them the way we'd like to be treated regardless of the circumstance.
This year has shown many ups and downs for me, however this time I am seeking a deeper understanding than before. An understanding that can only come from above. This Summer I found myself in a totally different storm I've never experienced many of the challenges I am facing while others are all too familiar. As I attempt to gather my thoughts along with the "right" words I recognize the lengthy process I have when writing. I also recognize when I am stalling for time due to insecurity or some other silly emotion which prolongs the outcome. Then I "beat myself up" with my thoughts, suggesting I should do better; then you have a moment or two when someone else decides to inform you of the same. Many times when we are on the outside looking in we tend to be a bit harder on another as we may be on ourselves. Or we may take a situation lightly because we aren't walking in those shoes, I find actually taking the time, energy and effort necessary to go through the pains of growing can be the most difficult of all. To seek to become a better person in a world where many can be quite difficult to tolerate can be a challenge within itself. I am realizing times when I should be patient with myself as well as to extend that same courtesy to others. There are plenty of sayings which come to mind, but the bottom line is "love thy neighbor"; opting to treat them the way we'd like to be treated regardless of the circumstance.
