when love calls....

lately I've been wondering, IF i truly love someone, the way I believe that I do; why is it so difficult to be open and honest? why is vulnerability such an obstacle for me?

I'd like to believe that WHEN I meet the "man of my dreams" the open, honest, vulnerable woman I'd  need to be will somehow appear.  However I dont really think it works that way.  Perhaps I dont love him the way I think I do.  OR maybe he's not the one.  Would it just happen or is this something I really need to make an effort to correct???

when love calls, will I hear it?