'Inside every confident, driven, single woman. Is there a delicate, fragile princess just waiting to be saved?' ~ Carrie Bradshaw, Sex & the City
The other night lying in bed debating on sending a text or not (I chose, not!) I realized, when it comes to men I often do things to receive a response, reply, action but most importantly ATTENTION. I guess that's not a bad thing, depending how you perceive it... The problem is, I don't see where its gotten me thus far which is why I didn't send anything. As much as I love, miss, want, and at times dare I say need him I refuse to settle for a series of 'responses'.
Makes me wonder: is your life so busy that you don't have the time to reach out to me and initiate a conversation? Or, are you too lazy to do it because you assume I'll take the lead, every time? Then the question of all questions, do you just not want to or think its necessary to communicate with me on a regular basis??!?! I'm tired! I don't like the doubt, I don't like the fact that the distance and irregular communication causes me to waiver with my trust for him. I want to give my all but I hold back at the possibility of being hurt. The paradox is, doing so hurts me as well as the chance 'we' have to actually build a solid relationship.
Then I think, if I'm holding back and he is distant (not only in regards to location) what kind of chance do we have anyway? O_o
I long for the day that he truly becomes my Prince Charming and comes to rescue me. Until then, I'll hold on til I can't anymore
