Reflection

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As I sit on my balcony I had a thought that I needed to express. As I picked up my phone and opened this app I stopped myself with another thought, "that's too personal to share, that goes in the journal". In that moment I realize I am not quite as open as I'd like to believe. I have not decided how I feel about that just yet, I don't know if it's even something I need to make a decision about.

However if you pick and choose what to share, is that being dishonest? Then again isn't everyone entitled to as much privacy as they feel is necessary? I guess it's all in your perspective. I know I still have an issue with allowing myself to be vulnerable, I just didn't realize how to measure it until I'm forced to face it.

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