The World Outside My Window

Three doctors and two prescriptions for a migraine headache that morphed into something I've never experienced before. I was literally in darkness with the covers pulled over my head each day, for a week. The vibration I felt in my head was beyond words. With sensitivity to light and sound, television and music were out of the question! So I slept, better yet, I dreamt; for 5 days. With the exception of outings to the doctor and for food, I don't recall many outings for food though. I typically have the most amazing dreams, I learned at a very young age how to control them. When I was young, I had "bad" dreams most nights, I don't think I'd classify them as nightmares, but they weren't pleasant. So I figured out a way to redirect them. Like, if I could tell the sequence of the current dream was heading to a dark space or someplace I didn't want it to go, I would think of something happy and my dream would change. The best part is, doing this never in...

For some reason I rarely pay attention to it's arrival, I just know that something is "off" in my communication.  Especially with certain people, I'd realize the breakdown and once things were back to "normal" I'd excuse the miscommunication and blame it all on Mercury and it's reverse travels.  Well not this time, I realize that although the "Cosmos" weren't quite aligned the way I'd like them to be, the interaction with some people wasn't that great when Mercury was on the straight and narrow.   As the usual New Year's Resolution time is approaching, I've come to terms with the idea that some people may not make it into 2013 with me.  This time not because I've deleted them, changed my number or said anything reckless, but simply because we don't want the same things.  We aren't on the same path and our interaction leads to frustration and stress, all of which I am not in a space to accept or tolerate...

I know, only in fables and movies, right? WRONG! Vampires come in many disguises, here's a not so common fact: they aren't necessarily after "blood". You ever spend time with someone/people and by the time you part ways you are drained? Mentally, Physically, Emotionally and/or Financially? If the answer is "yes", you my friend have fallen victim to a Vampire's bite. For some this may seem hopeless, but I'm here to remind you of one very important thing: Vampires, in their own way are usually ladies/gentleman, so they must be invited into your pocket, heart, thoughts, home and life. So stop inviting them OR disinvite them from your space. Simple? It really is. Trouble comes when certain circumstances are beyond your control. In those cases, I advise to be courteous however just as places of recreation and business "have the right to refuse service". Typically I try to keep my mouth shut, i bite my tongue A LOT. i believe certain things...

I wish you knew what you truly mean to me.  I'd honestly hate to "see" you out of my life.  I'm sure you'll do great, I just know, or should I say... I believe my expressions are unmatched.  Loving and fucking unknown to the average "human" Being. My desire runs though my veins like Vodka; or Rum; made by the Jamacian Priestess I once was.  Perhaps you put a spell on me.  There's a thought! As I have become consumed by you. Fiending like a junkie awaiting my next "hit".  I need it right now; I think more than my next breath.